Many times we say God is punishing me or why has God allow this to happen to me?  Many times we allow things that affect our families, friends and our self,  and we let our emotion and pride get in the way.  But do we really trust and wait on the Lord? The Bible say two things in this area:  1)Trust in the Lord with all  your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.  Proverbs 3: 5-6;

2) I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry.  Psalm 40:1

The next question is, are you truly waiting on the Lord and seeking his understanding? ” Only you and God knows the answer to that.”